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At home
if i lose my courage
please shoot me down
for i will no longer
be a happy being
i want to continue
to do things that scare
me intell i get comfortable with them
i want to fly above the clouds
knowing theres nowhere
to land
and to keep searching
never giving up
and to keep going
i want people to never really know me
and i'm convinced
they dont anyway
i cant be happy knowing
that ill stay the same
i never want  
something unless
its got variety
to show
at the door
i wanna see it up front and personal
its time we let go of all our baggage
and be brave
grow a little
show a little
right now everyone's
so fake
and id rather die than stay somewhere
so faded
so jaded
and if you're just like them
then i have no intrest
in you
i cant connect
in something so vain
i crave
adventure
all the time
and i want life
to be more than one big ongoing fight
i refuse to live the brainwashed life
i think i've always been stuck in my past
especially
the childhood me
i was so happy then
all the imagination
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life goes on when your not there
if there was a secret
i could not let out
if i could do more then just open doors
would you still understand
if i was more real than
you
could you deal
with your dreary
existence
what if i see the world the way it really is
and you only see it how you
would like to
what if the gold flecks in your eyes
are worth more than what you wear
on your wrist
what if i can let you know
without ever letting you know
because i feel things
you cant comprehend
i see the world and the ones beside it
we are one minute and a little to the left of another new
universe but we'll never get there
not in the here and now
but i should warn you
its a doozie
and you dont even know
open your eyes open your mind
you are so behind
there is more then you see
and more then you hear
life goes on when your not there
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take the thorn out of your eyes
people are so hateful
for no reason
at least not the reasons that matter
i think dumb people are angry
with no disregard
for humanity
you want to start a fight
it would thrill you
woudnt it
your an evil soul
you have no remorse
and people like you ought to be locked away
where you can all be locked togather
angry at the world
with each other
there is no reason for your rude tones
and your demeaning
personality
you are the reason you are so unhappy
and you are the only one who can fix it
dont blame others for how you see the world
through your hate rays
just waiting for anything to set you off
having no prior knowledge
of anyone but yourself
its none of your business
how many times i dye my hair
or if i'm tired
or what gender i prefer
to see myself as
take the stick out of your as and open your mind
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mankind
we should down our weapons
we should learn to love
it is a process
we must relearn everyday
we have been fitted with
different brands of hate
but we need to let that go
and we need to move forward
with peace
in our hearts
and mind
theres to much waste in our minds
and to much filth
in our hearts
we are a plague unto
ourselves
and we need to go way back
and we have to rewrite our
genetic history
and manufacture
a version of ourselves much better
then the one we are currently today
time must be irrelevant
in order for us to be better
and do more for our man kind
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permanent bruise
im on fire
and it rings true
i feel im bruised
perpetually
in my mind
theres a sore spot
in my head
a head game ill always lose
dont know why i beat me down
so easy to forget
tell surfaces are hit
then i break back down
and become the ugly monster
you knew
i cant be held in contempt
because i know they see
and i know there hands will always win
i feel the triggers inside
dont know why they rise
but i can break
at the sound
and im losing it
surly i will bend tell i break
i feel its constant compromising
and i cant give into the game
dunno where its taking me
or whats the purpose it holds
just a  desire that i wish i could lose
its a rush i feel untouched
but its like a prison
i could win
but id go insane
and i'm deathly afraid
of the waters
the peruse
below
where all the rocky ledges
go and break now
if i fall
or let go
it'll end much worse
then what i thought
and ill be permanently bruised
for you
so why do i constantly push my self to the ledge
of things id really rather not desi
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not asking me
i couldn't  care if i pissed you off
your more twosided then a two doller bill
and i dont have time
for anyone like you
drama
at every turn
if you could be less you maybe
we could be ok
but im not sorry
and i really dont care
you can take your problems somewhere else
and im trying hard to see
what makes anyone intrested in you
but you cant seem to fit
any place
that i can
see
i see your controlling
and you have fits like a child
and i ve already seen that
and i dont wanna confide in that
you seem violent
and unsure of yourself
but getting married
and believing in a religion
won't save you
you must save your self
please please
do not bring children into this world
intell youve straightened yourself up
i would never bring a kid into  the world in my current state
and i hope you see to reasons
beyond your perspective
to do the same
you get angry at the smallest
things your insecure
and you lash out at everybody
who wont agree with what you want
but we dont live in your head
and
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show them the way
im dying to find something
up in the atmosphere
but i cant see where im going from here
is it all just a test and error
type deal
i've been finding my heart scattered
in different places
and others faces
and im not sure what it means
i feel connected to people so far away
i feel connected
to smart people
people who have something to say
so tired of
watching society
just mindlessly
do what everyone does
and saying they're so different
watching idiots upon idiots is so disheartening
until i meet the ones
so different
the ones who have something to say
very few do
and i'm ready
for a new day
i'm ready for the basterds
with nothing to say
the idiots
who think money and marriage and owning a home are the
"important" things
theres something deeper more powerful
then those things there a human
kind a generation
of lover writers poets
and artists
with a bigger better mind
and we need to rise up against the idiots with
nothing to say
and show them the way
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in return
i  miss home everyday
i hold onto thoughts
that seem so crazy
even stupid
but theres always this underlying
feeling of something
maybe i'm missing
something
and i'm losing faith
in my mind
i feel dazed
and confused some days
and some days it's like my efforts mean nothing and
i wish i knew why
i hold on to things that maybe i shouldn't
maybe i try to hard
or not enough
not sure but things have got so dull
and i'm not even depressed
its passed that
i feel like all the colors been drained
and nothing seems exciting
and i'm holding on
but it feels like thats all i do some days
and i'm tired of feeling this way
i'm tired of being patient
can't we pick up the pace
i feel as though i'm all alone
screaming
and no one gets it
or hears it
and i feel so insane
i dont want this boring thing i need adventure
before i die
i'm tired of waiting all the time
for nothing in return
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rising
maybe now its your turn
to feel what i felt
so outcasted
so let go of
i was pushed
away from others
who didn't understand
and to those people who never took the chance to understand
maybe it's you who are at fault
you never saw what you could
because you were told not to
but you
never  thought of me but anything but some disease
an enigma
to which you wanted to pretend i wasn't real
i was something only made
up in fairy tales
but even fairy tales left out my kind
we've been banished for years
and now you're angry because
you dont get to feel superior
any more
well fuck you
for never truly
opening up your hearts
and souls
to something more beautiful
then you could ever imagine
fuck you for making someone like me
feel so replaceable
people leave this world
all the time
feeling so ugly and unloved
because
you never made them feel any better
consider what you say
we are here
and we always were
listening as others tear us down
and now were finally rising
and doing it much nicer then
wh
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relentlessly beautiful
that smile
the way your eyes shined my way
im not sure
what powers you posses
but i'm feeling
weak
and i hope i see you again
cause you
make me melt
and i have no protection
from what youve got
and i'm so into you
when i see you in my mind
i go kinda hazy
you're now my day dream
and i'm so lost
in the fog
your making me insane
and i'm flying high
hoping you'll stop in again
so i can take the chance
i should've with you
the first time
some one like you
ive never felt so pretty
before
the way you looked at me
makes me wanna hold your hand
and take you some where all alone
so we can talk and
i can see what its your mind
so i can see
what it is
that makes you so
relentlessly
beautiful
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book released
check out my book chalked full of my writings and photography and if you pick it up let me know
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compulsive liar
you tell me its left when its right
you think its grey when its clearly white
you try to make distractions
and you try to play innocent to who you really are
i can see through you
you dont fool me
ive met you before
you lie through your teeth
and its very unnerving
cant you say one thing thats true
instead of lying
about everything
its irritating
to hear you even lie about the small  things that can be checked
your a compulsive liar
and if you had the urge to read this its probably you
i see you need things your way
but why
why is that such
an important thing to you
you act like hes so annoying but
your the one who's annoying you act like hes done something wrong
who taught you this aggressive
behavior
its not cute and its quite obvious
id like to sit down with you and discuss
all the bull you spread
even lies you spread
with my name somehow in the mix
when you're nice your nice
almost to nice
and its erie
so open your mind expand your truth
and stop lying and we can be friend syo
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dry eye
eyes dry
trying hard
to reach for help
never remember how it feels
want a happy life
with some happy ending
need to remember
what it was that made me
so happy as  a child
never a thought of the plans i now have in mind
trying to be a happier me
trying to be a better person
helping someone else
and not staying so focused on me
remembering theres a bigger purpose
for me
then i can see
so maybe i travel
and help others along the way
like some dorthy gale
but i must also find a way to heal and help my soul too
and i hope on my way down this long yellow brick road
i find some hidden gem
to hold onto
some magic
ive never known i had
in me the whole time too
i hope people always remember me uniquely
i hope love does find me and change my mind about it
and i hope things blow down my expectations in life and make them so much more then i could of expected
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lifeline
i feel alone
and i feel sad
the funny thing is
i dont think anyone person can fix it
i fade to greys and blacks
as im struggling to be myself
i feel the world weighing down on me the more i struggle
the tighter its grasp
so should i let it have me
let it take my soul
i bleed from the inside
and no one seems to see
me
im crying out for something
anything
wishing at times i wasn't here
knowing full well who
that would affect
still pondering on it
body is always aching moneys always dry
bills piled high
i need a release
i need to find
my heart in life
but the place these states
cant help me bring
back my perfect state of mind
holding down
my stomach
and trying not to cry
out of  anger
and trying to see who i am
but seeing all the horrible people in the
world
and wondering if its worth it
to push through
is it worth
it for you
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if i lose my courage
please shoot me down
for i will no longer
be a happy being
i want to continue
to do things that scare
me intell i get comfortable with them

i want to fly above the clouds
knowing theres nowhere
to land
and to keep searching
never giving up
and to keep going

i want people to never really know me
and i'm convinced
they dont anyway
i cant be happy knowing
that ill stay the same
i never want  
something unless
its got variety
to show

at the door
i wanna see it up front and personal
its time we let go of all our baggage
and be brave
grow a little
show a little

right now everyone's
so fake
and id rather die than stay somewhere
so faded
so jaded
and if you're just like them

then i have no intrest
in you
i cant connect
in something so vain

i crave
adventure
all the time

and i want life
to be more than one big ongoing fight
i refuse to live the brainwashed life

i think i've always been stuck in my past
especially
the childhood me
i was so happy then
all the imagination
and no expectation

and now i need to go
need to find that corner
that i i feel in my soul
i just dont know where it is

i think i left in cali in the waves
and i'm bound and determined
to sail the seas and dive in deep to find what i need

past the sharks and the dark
past the oceans heart
deep where i can't
feel anymore

where the gravity and pressure
squeezes me
into something new
something beautiful
and mind blowing

i want something different
cause its where
i feel at home and not so alone
if there was a secret
i could not let out
if i could do more then just open doors
would you still understand
if i was more real than
you
could you deal
with your dreary
existence

what if i see the world the way it really is
and you only see it how you
would like to
what if the gold flecks in your eyes
are worth more than what you wear
on your wrist

what if i can let you know
without ever letting you know
because i feel things
you cant comprehend
i see the world and the ones beside it

we are one minute and a little to the left of another new
universe but we'll never get there
not in the here and now
but i should warn you
its a doozie

and you dont even know
open your eyes open your mind
you are so behind
there is more then you see
and more then you hear
life goes on when your not there
people are so hateful
for no reason
at least not the reasons that matter
i think dumb people are angry
with no disregard
for humanity
you want to start a fight

it would thrill you
woudnt it
your an evil soul
you have no remorse
and people like you ought to be locked away
where you can all be locked togather
angry at the world
with each other


there is no reason for your rude tones
and your demeaning
personality
you are the reason you are so unhappy
and you are the only one who can fix it

dont blame others for how you see the world
through your hate rays
just waiting for anything to set you off
having no prior knowledge
of anyone but yourself

its none of your business
how many times i dye my hair
or if i'm tired
or what gender i prefer
to see myself as

take the stick out of your as and open your mind
we should down our weapons
we should learn to love
it is a process
we must relearn everyday
we have been fitted with
different brands of hate
but we need to let that go

and we need to move forward
with peace
in our hearts
and mind
theres to much waste in our minds
and to much filth
in our hearts

we are a plague unto
ourselves
and we need to go way back
and we have to rewrite our
genetic history

and manufacture
a version of ourselves much better
then the one we are currently today

time must be irrelevant
in order for us to be better
and do more for our man kind
im on fire
and it rings true
i feel im bruised
perpetually
in my mind
theres a sore spot
in my head

a head game ill always lose
dont know why i beat me down
so easy to forget
tell surfaces are hit
then i break back down
and become the ugly monster
you knew
i cant be held in contempt
because i know they see
and i know there hands will always win

i feel the triggers inside
dont know why they rise
but i can break
at the sound
and im losing it

surly i will bend tell i break
i feel its constant compromising
and i cant give into the game
dunno where its taking me
or whats the purpose it holds

just a  desire that i wish i could lose
its a rush i feel untouched
but its like a prison
i could win
but id go insane
and i'm deathly afraid

of the waters
the peruse
below
where all the rocky ledges
go and break now

if i fall
or let go
it'll end much worse
then what i thought
and ill be permanently bruised
for you

so why do i constantly push my self to the ledge
of things id really rather not desire
anymore

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was born and raised in Indiana. love documenting my life my friends any way i can cause i find life to be just full of bliss and creativity thank you everyone who watches and supports youll never know how much it means to me

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